May 2023: We appreciate the interest in this moving testimony and have added the obituary for Pastor Carsten Häublein at the end of this post.
by Dafna Tachover, EHS Fights Back, 14 February 2014
A year ago, on February 14th, a day dedicated to love, I got a heartbreaking message which reflects most the unloving nature of our society. I was informed that my friend, Carsten Häublein, a German priest who suffered from EHS for 10 years, could no longer take the pain of the ‘Fire’ 4G LTE, which burned inside his head, and committed suicide.
My sadness was profound and on that same day I wrote a post but I did not publish it. His death was too overwhelming and I needed more time to digest it and understand what it meant for me, what impact should it have on my life and what his death says about the world and society when priests commit suicide.
Carsten first contacted me 10 months before he committed suicide and we kept in touch and had long conversations, he even spoke Hebrew. He worked tirelessly to help hundreds of people who suffer from EHS while trying to survive himself and living in inhumane conditions in his car in the woods.
In one of our calls I tried to convince him to give an interview and he refused. He explained that he gave interviews in the past and as a result he and others who tried to fight local cell phone antennas were persecuted “the way the Jews were persecuted by the Nazis”. No German would have said these words lightly, especially not to a Jew, and living with EHS for 4 years, I agree that the comparison is inevitable and no Jew would have said it lightly either.
His exact day of death is unknown, sometime between 11th to the 14th of February, 2013. He committed suicide by jumping into a freezing river. His body was found a few days later. He sat by the river for a few days prior to his death, and one day a person asked him if everything was OK. Why, when for 10 years he said that no, nothing is OK, didn’t anyone do something? Why now, when millions are screaming including children, is anyone still doing nothing?
This is what I wrote the day I heard about Carsten’s suicide:
“I have been sitting all day staring at the computer, saying and thinking again and again “not Carsten…No”. I did not know what to do with myself. I feel sorrow that I cannot contain. It is evening now, and I just cannot smile, I cannot be consoled. I am deeply sad about Carsten but it hurts even more to comprehend the kind of world and society I live in. We learned nothing from the Holocaust.
When mothers who are trying to protect their children are arrested and indicted for refusing the installation of wireless meters in their homes, instead of those who manufacture and distribute them, something is very wrong in society. When judges, doctors, engineers are forced to leave their homes, families and careers and become refugees in the woods in the freezing winter, something is very wrong in society.
But when priests commit suicide, an act which is contradictory to the core of their being, then it means hope is completely lost and with it our most basic values as a humane society.
Today I lost any shred of hope I had in humanity, because when priests commit suicide and cannot see light amidst all the darkness, there is no hope”.
My last conversation with him was difficult. I felt he were at the end of his rope. Following the conversation I contacted another German friend, but apparently no one could help, even in the woods he could not escape the tormenting 4G anymore.
Carsten asked that the poem “Von guten Mächten wunderbar geborgen“ or “By Loving Forces Silently Surrounded”, be read in his funeral. The poem was written by Dietrich Bonhoeffer, a German pastor and a writer who fought the Nazis to protect the Jews and just like Carsten, his life is a testament of “commitment to justice on behalf of those who face implacable evil”. He was executed just before the war ended. Following is a partial translation of the poem[i]:
By gracious powers so wonderfully sheltered,
and confidently waiting, come what may,
we know that God is with us night and morning,
and never fails to greet us each new day.
Yet is this heart by its old foe tormented,
still evil days bring burdens hard to bear;
O give our frightened souls the sure salvation
for which, O Lord, you taught us to prepare.
And when this cup you give is filled to brimming,
with bitter sorrow, hard to understand,
we take it thankfully and without trembling,
out of so good and so beloved a hand.
Yet when again in this same world you give us
the joy we had, the brightness of your sun,
we shall remember all the days we lived through,
and our whole life shall then be yours alone.
Anna Frank wrote that “Despite it all, I believe that people are really good at heart”. I don’t. The end of Anna Frank’s story just as Carsten’s, is all the proof I need.
I signed my post last year with the word “Shattered”. I still am, every day, thinking about Carsten and the society that murdered him.
Dafna
http://ehsfighback.blogspot.ch/2014/02/when-priests-commit-suicide.html
Carsten first contacted me 10 months before he committed suicide and we kept in touch and had long conversations, he even spoke Hebrew. He worked tirelessly to help hundreds of people who suffer from EHS while trying to survive himself and living in inhumane conditions in his car in the woods.
In one of our calls I tried to convince him to give an interview and he refused. He explained that he gave interviews in the past and as a result he and others who tried to fight local cell phone antennas were persecuted “the way the Jews were persecuted by the Nazis”. No German would have said these words lightly, especially not to a Jew, and living with EHS for 4 years, I agree that the comparison is inevitable and no Jew would have said it lightly either.
His exact day of death is unknown, sometime between 11th to the 14th of February, 2013. He committed suicide by jumping into a freezing river. His body was found a few days later. He sat by the river for a few days prior to his death, and one day a person asked him if everything was OK. Why, when for 10 years he said that no, nothing is OK, didn’t anyone do something? Why now, when millions are screaming including children, is anyone still doing nothing?
This is what I wrote the day I heard about Carsten’s suicide:
“I have been sitting all day staring at the computer, saying and thinking again and again “not Carsten…No”. I did not know what to do with myself. I feel sorrow that I cannot contain. It is evening now, and I just cannot smile, I cannot be consoled. I am deeply sad about Carsten but it hurts even more to comprehend the kind of world and society I live in. We learned nothing from the Holocaust.
When mothers who are trying to protect their children are arrested and indicted for refusing the installation of wireless meters in their homes, instead of those who manufacture and distribute them, something is very wrong in society. When judges, doctors, engineers are forced to leave their homes, families and careers and become refugees in the woods in the freezing winter, something is very wrong in society.
But when priests commit suicide, an act which is contradictory to the core of their being, then it means hope is completely lost and with it our most basic values as a humane society.
Today I lost any shred of hope I had in humanity, because when priests commit suicide and cannot see light amidst all the darkness, there is no hope”.
My last conversation with him was difficult. I felt he were at the end of his rope. Following the conversation I contacted another German friend, but apparently no one could help, even in the woods he could not escape the tormenting 4G anymore.
Carsten asked that the poem “Von guten Mächten wunderbar geborgen“ or “By Loving Forces Silently Surrounded”, be read in his funeral. The poem was written by Dietrich Bonhoeffer, a German pastor and a writer who fought the Nazis to protect the Jews and just like Carsten, his life is a testament of “commitment to justice on behalf of those who face implacable evil”. He was executed just before the war ended. Following is a partial translation of the poem[i]:
By gracious powers so wonderfully sheltered,
and confidently waiting, come what may,
we know that God is with us night and morning,
and never fails to greet us each new day.
Yet is this heart by its old foe tormented,
still evil days bring burdens hard to bear;
O give our frightened souls the sure salvation
for which, O Lord, you taught us to prepare.
And when this cup you give is filled to brimming,
with bitter sorrow, hard to understand,
we take it thankfully and without trembling,
out of so good and so beloved a hand.
Yet when again in this same world you give us
the joy we had, the brightness of your sun,
we shall remember all the days we lived through,
and our whole life shall then be yours alone.
Anna Frank wrote that “Despite it all, I believe that people are really good at heart”. I don’t. The end of Anna Frank’s story just as Carsten’s, is all the proof I need.
I signed my post last year with the word “Shattered”. I still am, every day, thinking about Carsten and the society that murdered him.
Dafna
http://ehsfighback.blogspot.ch/2014/02/when-priests-commit-suicide.html
Obituary for Pastor Carsten Häublein (1957-2013)
with excerpts from the speech on the occasion of the funeral service - auto-translation
Pastor Carsten Häublein ended his life himself in February 2013, because he suffered from unbearable symptoms since the commissioning of LTE transmitters in July 2012 and his will to live was broken by this.
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"Mobile phone victim" |
His time of suffering began in 2006. In the fall of 2006, after the transmitters in Oberammergau had been converted, Pastor Häublein and many other local residents began to experience a wide variety of inexplicable and sometimes unbearable
symptoms: extreme sleep disturbances, racing heart, increased blood pressure, headaches, vibrations, trembling, sweating, burning, disorientation, inability to think, exhaustion, hearing loss, ear pressure, eye inflammation, nerve pain.
It was a great blessing that Pastor Häublein had the courage to go public with his complaints: "Heart palpitations, insomnia and night sweats: Pastor at the end" was the headline in the Münchner Merkur on November 10, 2006.
This encouraged other affected persons and also the treating physicians to follow his example. Due to the good cooperation of Pastor Häublein with Dipl. Ing. Funk, local doctors and the municipality of Oberammergau, the considerable effects of these low frequency modulated signals on human health became known far beyond Oberammergau.
Despite incomprehension and ridicule from different sides, he reported in the Münchner Merkur on 30.01.07 that he had to leave Oberammergau. With the sentence "Mobile radio has robbed me of my health" he questioned the myth of mobile radio.
In the program Bürgerforum live of the Bavarian TV in February 2007 it became clear that many people suffer from this technology.
And yet, the cases of illness, which occurred in large numbers, were neither investigated by official nor by scientific authorities. And the churches remained silent in the face of human distress. Pastor Häublein, many other affected people and the doctors who cared for them were in despair.
In April 2009, after a long search, he was granted a spot in Schleswig-Holstein where he could live in harmony with his health. Within a few weeks he recovered and was full of energy again. He helped where and how he could, by telephone and practically, other affected people, made contacts in other countries, and got involved again in pastoral care. Unfortunately, this only lasted three years before modern technology took hold there as well.
In July 2012, his health had suddenly taken an extreme turn for the worse. LTE (the fourth generation of mobile communications for fast wireless Internet access) had gone live.
In utter despair, he described the agonizing symptoms: "I am perishing. Hissing and pounding in my head, inability to think, vibrating, racing heart, shortness of breath, heat and burning all over my body, pressure on my ears, complete listlessness, I can't go on!" Only under eight rescue blankets and in the water did he find relief.
He hoped that the further spread of this technology would be halted and that radio-free areas would be made available at least for the severely affected.
But it was like back then in Oberammergau: authorities, politicians, network operators and scientists were not interested in the desperate people suffering from LTE.... Now even the media were silent. And day after day, more LTE transmitters were built.
Pastor Häublein no longer saw any possibility where he could be safe from this technology. He only wanted to escape the torture that had become unbearable.
The pastor's speech at the funeral service contains his legacy:
"Now we have to say goodbye and ask ourselves whether we have done everything to help our suffering fellow human being. I do not know, I only know that in his suffering he did not find open ears and helping hands everywhere and I do not exclude our official church and its representatives. I would like to deliberately exclude the people who stood by him in his difficult last period of service in Oberammergau.
We have to ask ourselves if we have not failed and if we have not been guilty of God and of our deceased confrere and have to ask for forgiveness. The technology of our modern times is also subject to the question of whether it is really permissible to do everything that can be done if people suffer or even perish as a result. It is not only individuals, for some strange creatures, but, as a statistic says, already 10% of our fellow human beings who suffer from a technology that is at least not harmless.
...Carsten Häublein, at the end of his time of suffering, no longer only saw the shining summit cross, but only felt the rays of a painful technology.
...The question always remains how we deal with this earth created by God, how we deal with our fellow human beings, how we deal with the suffering and the weak, the old and the children, those who believe differently and those who look differently. Most of the time it is up to us, not God, when injustice and suffering happen."
His wish was that his tombstone bear witness to the fate that befell him.
Cornelia Waldmann-Selsam and Suzanne Sohmer
Original article in German:
https://www.aerzte-und-mobilfunk.eu/wir-aerzte/stellungnahmen/pfarrer-carsten-haeublein/
It was a great blessing that Pastor Häublein had the courage to go public with his complaints: "Heart palpitations, insomnia and night sweats: Pastor at the end" was the headline in the Münchner Merkur on November 10, 2006.
This encouraged other affected persons and also the treating physicians to follow his example. Due to the good cooperation of Pastor Häublein with Dipl. Ing. Funk, local doctors and the municipality of Oberammergau, the considerable effects of these low frequency modulated signals on human health became known far beyond Oberammergau.
Despite incomprehension and ridicule from different sides, he reported in the Münchner Merkur on 30.01.07 that he had to leave Oberammergau. With the sentence "Mobile radio has robbed me of my health" he questioned the myth of mobile radio.
In the program Bürgerforum live of the Bavarian TV in February 2007 it became clear that many people suffer from this technology.
And yet, the cases of illness, which occurred in large numbers, were neither investigated by official nor by scientific authorities. And the churches remained silent in the face of human distress. Pastor Häublein, many other affected people and the doctors who cared for them were in despair.
In April 2009, after a long search, he was granted a spot in Schleswig-Holstein where he could live in harmony with his health. Within a few weeks he recovered and was full of energy again. He helped where and how he could, by telephone and practically, other affected people, made contacts in other countries, and got involved again in pastoral care. Unfortunately, this only lasted three years before modern technology took hold there as well.
In July 2012, his health had suddenly taken an extreme turn for the worse. LTE (the fourth generation of mobile communications for fast wireless Internet access) had gone live.
In utter despair, he described the agonizing symptoms: "I am perishing. Hissing and pounding in my head, inability to think, vibrating, racing heart, shortness of breath, heat and burning all over my body, pressure on my ears, complete listlessness, I can't go on!" Only under eight rescue blankets and in the water did he find relief.
He hoped that the further spread of this technology would be halted and that radio-free areas would be made available at least for the severely affected.
But it was like back then in Oberammergau: authorities, politicians, network operators and scientists were not interested in the desperate people suffering from LTE.... Now even the media were silent. And day after day, more LTE transmitters were built.
Pastor Häublein no longer saw any possibility where he could be safe from this technology. He only wanted to escape the torture that had become unbearable.
The pastor's speech at the funeral service contains his legacy:
"Now we have to say goodbye and ask ourselves whether we have done everything to help our suffering fellow human being. I do not know, I only know that in his suffering he did not find open ears and helping hands everywhere and I do not exclude our official church and its representatives. I would like to deliberately exclude the people who stood by him in his difficult last period of service in Oberammergau.
We have to ask ourselves if we have not failed and if we have not been guilty of God and of our deceased confrere and have to ask for forgiveness. The technology of our modern times is also subject to the question of whether it is really permissible to do everything that can be done if people suffer or even perish as a result. It is not only individuals, for some strange creatures, but, as a statistic says, already 10% of our fellow human beings who suffer from a technology that is at least not harmless.
...Carsten Häublein, at the end of his time of suffering, no longer only saw the shining summit cross, but only felt the rays of a painful technology.
...The question always remains how we deal with this earth created by God, how we deal with our fellow human beings, how we deal with the suffering and the weak, the old and the children, those who believe differently and those who look differently. Most of the time it is up to us, not God, when injustice and suffering happen."
His wish was that his tombstone bear witness to the fate that befell him.
Cornelia Waldmann-Selsam and Suzanne Sohmer
Original article in German:
https://www.aerzte-und-mobilfunk.eu/wir-aerzte/stellungnahmen/pfarrer-carsten-haeublein/
Thank you for posting this Meris!
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